I think I may have written about this topic before, but I have a deeper understanding of the meaning and how it applies to me:-) First, the definition…
e·rot·ic/iˈrätik/ – Of, relating to, or tending to arouse sexual desire or excitement.
e·nig·ma/iˈnigmə/ – A person or thing that is mysterious, puzzling, or difficult to understand.
So, the individual who originally mentioned in a facebook message that I was an “erotic enigma”…was trying to say that I have a tendency to bring about sexual desire or arousal, yet I am mysterious,, puzzling and often difficult to understand. I sort of understood at the time, but even after I asked him to elaborate and he told me that I was an incredibly transparent and open woman, yet totally inaccessible, I still didn’t really get what he meant.
However, a client recently told me that, he really didn’t have anything in particular to work on; he had booked his session with me because he was intrigued. He wanted to understand more about who I am and what I do. That’s when it dawned on me; I really am an erotic enigma! I already understand that people are aroused watching other who are empowered to be sexually transparent. Yet, although I share my intimate life with the whole world, because I am a monogamous woman with a huge gaggle of kids means that I am not really accessible.
I felt bad that this young man had to book a session with me just to simply ask me a few questions and “pick my brain”. At the same time, it’s not like I can sit down with individuals and couples from around the world to a cup of tea. When I’m not practicing or writing, I spend the rest of my time hanging out with my family and close friends. There’s honestly not much time for idle chit-chat. So, the one gratis offering I will continue to provide is my availability to answer email questions.
Life has been beautifully intense, but our rhythm is balancing now and I am more available in an erotic enigma kinda way:-) Well folks, that’s all she wrote! Sending out a big hug and kiss to all…from my heart to yours, Joy