Orgasmic Transformation Cont…


I walked into my bedroom and lit two deep blue candles (represents healing energy). I basked in the beauty of the soft candlelight, while trying to tap into my sensual energy. For a woman who has always had a veracious appetite for sex, it is honestly very scary to fill sexually uninspired. I found myself experiencing feelings related to fear. Then a funny thing happened.

I remembered my favourite scene from the movie “After Earth”. There is a moment int he movie where the main character is speaking with his son about fear. His speech was life altering for me…

Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. THAT IS NEAR INSANITY Do not misunderstand me danger is very real, but fear is a choice. We are all telling ourselves a story and that day mine changed.” – After Earth

So, as I was about to release my fear through sexual exploration, I heard the words of actor Will Smith echoing in my mind. Before moving forward, I had to identify my fear. My fear was that I would settle into life and allow my sex life, including my self exploration, become dull and uninspired. My mother could be described as passionless, uninspired…frigid even.

My fear? That I was turning into my mother! Don’t get me wrong, I love and deeply respect and honour my mother. That does not mean I want to turn into her 😉 Somehow, simply identifying my fear was freeing in itself. I felt lighter, happier and more deeply rooted by my sensuous energy.

As I later melted into various peaks and valleys of orgasmic energy…I found myself. I hadn’t gone anywhere, I had not ever “lost myself”. I had simply been caught up in the challenge and process of perpetual change. I had focused on other areas of my life that were taking priority.

Since my sensual awakening, I discovered more about myself as a sexual, sensual, empowered woman. And the journey continues…from my heart to yours, Joyfinalwebsize (1)5

3 Comments Add yours

  1. Shyam Sundar says:

    Hi, Wonderful and marveles exploration of the simple  truth of life and evolution. I appreciate you and look forward to meet you soon and merge in to your energy and love. Shyam.

  2. den1954 says:

    Can you tell me if Kundalini Yoga and Tantric explorations are similar? What do you know about Kundalini and whole body orgasm?

    1. Tantrachick says:

      I am not deeply familiar with Kundalini yoga..I have read some books and taken classes, but never personally explored…so it would be hard for me to make a comparison.

      As for “kundalini” whole body orgasm…if we take away the word Kundalini, defined (in yoga) as “latent female energy believed to lie coiled at the base of the spine.” and replace it with sexual energy…that is something I am familiar with on a personal level.

      If you want to read about my exploration, I suggest reading my post on Joyous Meditation… Thank you for participating in the on-going discussion. If you have anymore questions, ask away!

      From my heart to yours,

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