Take a deep breath she tells herself, all is well in the world. This week has really knocked my spirit down a little. Paul’s comment, which basically says that my clients are mirroring my needed experience at first offended me mildly, but then made sense. I have had so much fear about living in a small Midwest town and having such an alternative practice that it does kind of make sense that I would face challenges.
One of my sweet students emailed me and said that he thought I didn’t take in person sessions. I had not planned on taking local clients, he is correct. Once again, I responded to a local need. In the past few weeks I have been flooded with session requests from people all across Iowa, Ohio, and a few of the surrounding states. People seem to be willing to drive from huge distances to work with me.
What I have learned from this is two-fold. On the one hand, the sexual repression that Dan talked about in his comment is likely part of the reason people are so desperate to work with me. There seems to be very few people who use a non-sexual approach to sexual education and healing. On the other hand, this deep-seated need also reinforces my thoughts about the area I live.
When there is repression, shame, and guilt around sexuality, the need for transformation is going to be stronger. In addition, the resistance to a practice like mine is likely also going to be stronger. This leaves me feeling unsure about how to move forward with my in person practice.
I have always done my best to respond to the needs of the people who are drawn to work with me…however, there is a comfort in working with people from around the world through Skype and phone sessions. I think what I have decided is to change my site to ensure that there is no chance of misunderstanding my intentions, approach, and offerings.
I am not exactly sure how to express what I do without opening it up to being misinterpreted, but like another reader said, “There will always be some people who think that Tantra is about nothing more or less than sexual gratification.” This is absolutely true. One person cannot transform the world’s view on sexuality, sex, and Tantra (or can she? lol).
I am planning on starting to video blog (vlog). Somehow I think that seeing my talk on video will help people understand more about me, my practice, and my offerings. In Victoria, I offered Hypnotic Hands Bodywork (totally non-sexual in nature). I also offered sensual massage teaching for couples.
Here in the US, you must be licensed to practice massage. I am starting down the bath to becoming licensed on Monday. The difference between Canada and US as far as massage goes is that you have a lot more leniency in how you can practice.
I am positive that this practice and my massage practice cannot possibly coexist. Not sure what that means for my future, but for today, I am just going to take a deep breath and let go. At the moment, the people I have chosen to work with are beautiful souls that I truly enjoy working with.
That’s all she wrote…from my heart to yours, Joy
ps: thank you for all the wonderfully insightful and supportive comments!