I have so much beauty in my life right now that my heart is over flowing with pure ecstasy. For those of you who have been reading my blog for awhile, you know that I moved to a quaint Midwest town in 2013. The shock of moving from the eclectic, artistic, and open-minded island of Salt Spring to a conservative bible belt town was devastating to my spirit. For the past four years, I feel like I’ve been in a holding pattern. Although the experience was a lonely one, the quiet contemplation available to me during this time has proven to be invaluable.
For the first couple years I kept trying to fit in because I wanted to feel like I belonged, but over time, it became clear that I could NOT fit it. I then discovered that I didn’t want to fit in. Fitting in would mean losing track of the beauty of my unique soul. From my perspective, each of us has a sacred gift to offer the world. If we change ourselves to fit in, we ultimately let society dim our light. If we do this to ourselves, we are not honoring our individual path and it becomes increasingly difficult to share our gifts with the people in our lives and in our community. It is important to stay true to who you are, not who you think society wants you to be.
Although I would love to go back to the West Coast of Canada, it feels right to be in the Midwest. We have established roots and relationships here that are irreplaceable. So rather than do one of my drastic moves, we relocated to one of the most spiritually aware communities in Iowa. It is just an hour and a half from where we previously lived, but it feels like a completely different place altogether.
We moved just last week and I cannot believe how different I already feel! I am finding myself again and embracing a level of wonder and excitement towards life that I haven’t felt in a long time. There are a lot of other changes happening for me that I am not yet ready to share. I hope to share soon, but I assure you it is all incredibly positive and brings me increased levels of bliss each and every day.
As some of you may know, I am also experimenting with a series of nude self-portraits. Although I have had numerous implied nude photos taken of my body, this is the first time I have let go of judgment, shame, and overcome my personal inhibitions and allowed myself to be photographed completely nude. It has been an intense journey. Possibly more intense than I originally imagined. Allowing myself to drop into a vulnerable space and capture the moment is liberating but it is also a little confusing at times.
What is important to me is that my photos and the connected stories I share with you inspire each of you to let go just a bit. Embrace yourself on a deeper level. Honor the beauty held within your mind, your heart, your spirit, and your body. You are beautiful! In my mind, all bodies are beautiful in their own unique way. For me, this journey is about letting go, going within, capturing a vulnerable moment and then sharing that moment through the camera lens with a level of transparency I have not previously tapped into.
I recently worked with a beautiful photographer who managed to disarm my defenses with his wit, humor, and photographic skill. We did a variety of photos in various locations of a home I own that happens to be empty while we prep it for sale. While working with Jerry I realized that I have never been comfortable working with a photographer until now. I stood fully naked chit chatting with Jerry about different settings, ideas, and props. It was so natural that I felt a layer of healing take place within my soul.
I am not a nudist, though I fully support the naturist lifestyle. I see myself as a situational nudist. Basically, when it feels comfortable and safe to be naked in a setting that makes sense, I love being naked. During the photo shoot, considering the fact that I was fully nude for all of the photos, it just made sense that I would stay naked throughout the entire experience. Luckily, Jerry is such a gentle spirited man that his presence was lovely and he made me laugh often, which was beautiful. I look forward to sharing this new photo series with you in September!
On the 10th of each month, I will be sharing one set of photos plus a couple extras throughout the month so that you are able to share this journey with me. I am not posting my photos on this blog, but I have a Patreon page where you can support my path of self-exploration. I look forward to sharing this journey with you and it is my hope that you may be inspired to start a journey of your own…you don’t have to get naked and take photos. Just find something that you have wanted to do for a long time and dive in! Giving yourself permission to experience aspects of life that you are drawn to is one of the most beautiful gifts you can give yourself.
I look forward to hearing about your life and what’s going on for you, so please share via a comment or through email: firstname.lastname@example.org
To see my series of nude self-portraits, please visit my Patreon page.
From my heart to yours,